心碎的那一刻

和他可以说相识了差不多半年，对他有种很特别和难以形容的感觉。 你问我喜欢他吗， 我会答我喜欢他；但你问我想和他一起吗， 我会很犹豫我是否适合和他一起。
和他在一起的时刻，很开心，我不知道为什么他让我那么喜欢和他在一起。他对我会很体贴温柔，我们总是有说不完的话题，可以说我们是知己。我了解他的性格，我想他也了解我吧。他曾经告诉我他需要时间去忘掉之前那伤害他很深的恋情。
曾经的我，因为在乎他而时常和他吵架。我们因为不了解对方，在加上彼此的脾气也不小，每次把事情吵到很复杂。很多时候我会告诉自己，我们好像并不适合。但是我最后还是选择原谅和道歉。
昨天，我们发生了很大的争执。可能他遇到很烦的事情，再加上他把那脾气发在我身上，我根本接受不到他这样的行为。我们吵到很严重的地步，他说了很多伤害我的话。说真的，我真的很伤心，心痛到眼泪都把我衣服弄湿了。我心痛因为他把我和他的友情看的那么浅。我心痛他可以那么轻易的说出很多难听的话来伤害我。
我，并不是个复杂的女生。
我，从没要求他要给我什么。
我，并没打算真的和他一起。
但是，我还是继续待在他身边，给他支持，给他力量，做他的聆听者。
我知道他需要别人的支持和鼓励。
喜欢一个人，并不需要真的去拥有他。
而我，我选择了待在他身边给他鼓励和支持。他烦恼时，我会和他一起分担。虽然我没什么能力帮到他，但是我可以做的就是做他的聆听者，让他诉苦。
当他面对压力时，我可以买些他喜欢吃的甜点来鼓励他。
可能以后我们不一定可以在一起， 但是我会陪他直到他真正喜欢的女人出现。
虽然你会说我很笨，但是我可以为他做的就只有这些。
说真的，我很生气很心痛尤其是他那些句句难听的话。
虽然最后我选择原谅，但是伤害最终还是伤害了，心里的疤痕不会随着原谅而复原。
即使他道歉了，那伤害还是无法当着没发生过。
一千句的我喜欢你永远都不能盖过一句那么伤人的话。

如果我们的友情是件儿戏，那么我宁愿放弃。因为在那个时候，他已经不值得我为他付出了。。

A letter From Mom and Dad

My child,
When I grow old, I hope you understand and have patience with me.
In case I break a plate, or spill soup on the table because I'm loosing my eye sight,
I hope you don't yell at me.
Older people are sensitive, always having self pity when you yell.
When my hearing gets worse and I can't hear what you are saying,
I hope you don't call me "Deaf!"
Please repeat what you said or write it down.
I'm sorry, my child,
I'm getting older.
When my knee get weaker, I hope you have the patience to help me get up.
Like how I used to help you while you were little, learning how to walk.
Please bear with me.
When I keep repeating myself like a broken record,
I hope you just keep listening to me.
Please don't make fun of me or get sick of listening to me
Do you remember when you were little and you wanted a balloon?
You repeated yourself over and over until you got what you wanted.
Please also pardon my smell.
I smell like an old person,
Please don't force me to shower. My body is weak. Old people get sick easily when they're cold.
I hope I don't gross you out,
Do you remember when you were little?
I used to chase you around because you didn't want to shower.
I  hope you can be patient with me, when I'm always cranky. Its all part of getting old.
You'll understand when you're older and if you have spare time. I hope we can talk, even for a few minutes.
I'm always all by myself all the time, and have no one to talk to.

When I read until the last paragraph of the letter, my tears drop without I realize. All the scene about my child time how they educate and teach me appear in my mind. Parents, take care about us from the baby until we grow up. They sacrifice their time and money, but they just want us to be a good person in this society. They never request anything from us, they just want us to spend more time with them after we work. Appreciate the time when you spend with them. You will become parents too in the future, do not always think about yourselves........

Simple city in Indonesia~Medan

01/03/2012, this is my first time to reach the land of Medan. By taking the Air Asia flight, we reach here safely without any delay. We staying in my relative house for 5 days 4 nights in Medan and they bring us to visit quite a lot of nice place. Let me share some interesting view about Medan.

Location
Medan is located at the northern coast of Indonesia and it is the fourth largest city in Indonesia after Jakarta, Surabaya and Bandung.

Tourism Place
The most famous tourism place in Medan is Lake Toba. Lake Toba is a largest lake in Indonesia. We used almost 2 hours and a half to reach Pearl of Lake Toba from my relative house. The journey is far and the road is quite worse due to Indonesia government is not fully develop for this tourism place.

 I feel amazing with the view of Lake Toba. 

The weather  is almost same with the weather in Genting Highland. 

You totally wont feel hot when you come to this place.

Unfortunately, this place not really well developed as a tourism place by Indonesia government. The facilities here still not really good. Apart from that, please remember to wear long sleeve and apply more and more sun block when you decide to come for this place. If not, you will regret because it really cause sun burn. My skin totally get serious sun burn after I came back.

Maha Vihara Maitreya Temple is the biggest temple in Indonesia and it is also a famous temple in Asia.

 A very beautiful lotus that plant in front of the temple.

 Sky pot

 Cute monk bite by a puppy

 There has a nice decoration in the temple that allow people to take photo

This temple is really large and a lot of people love to come here to pray and exercise. You can see a lot of people gather outside of the temple to jog or playing badminton. If you are Buddhist, you have to come to this place to pray and visit. You definitely will not feel regret.

Food
Duck Mihun.

This is one of my favorite food in Medan. The taste is very nice especially the duck meat. If you like to eat duck, you definitely will love this food in Medan.You definitely will not find this special food in Malaysia.

Satay Padang,

Satay Padang is a dish from Padang, western Sumatra. It is a traditional dish that made in chicken, lamb, squid and many more. The satay sauce is quite different compare to Malaysia. It made from rice flour, tumeric, ginger, garlic, coriander,galangal root, cumin, curry powder and salt.

Meranti Swiss Roll
It is famous Swiss roll in Medan and a lot of people queue to buy this everyday. You definitely have to try this when you come to Medan. There has three different flavor such as Mocha, Blueberry and cheese. For me, I love cheese flavor very much. This is hard to describe the taste of this Swiss roll. The Mocha Swiss Roll is too sweet and I do not really like it. You can buy this as a souvenir when you come to Medan. Due to I only know how to eat it until I forgot to take the picture for this Swiss Roll, so you can google and find the image for this.

Shopping
Medan, is not a shopping heaven for shopaholic. It is not worth to shop in Indonesia due to the price for most of the clothes, bag or shoes are expensive. For example, I saw a nice cardigan in one of the shopping center in Medan, it cost around RM98 while it only cost around RM50 in Malaysia. However, the only things cheaper here is petrol. The cost for petrol is lower than Malaysia currently.

Culture
In addition, most of the local people here open their business in Medan. According to my relative, the rent and expenses to open a shop in Medan very high compare to Malaysia. In addition, the salary consider lower than Malaysia due to large population that cause the labor cost is very cheap in Medan.

Transportation
For tourist, it is better to rent a car that can bring you all go to the place you want to visit in Medan. It is naked truth to say that the transportation in Medan is not so convenient. Most of the local people will take their car or public transport like becak (Beca in Malay), small bus, taxi and train.

Point of view
Medan is a very simple and relax city. Compare to Malaysia, the city do not have much tall building and well develop by government. However, I feel surprise that all the road users in Medan know how to tolerate among themselves when drive. Due to Indonesia has large population compare to Malaysia, it always cause the traffic jam in the city. I really feel impress about the toleration of all the road users in Medan. They normally will hon to let other car or motorcyclist know that they want to change line or go other side. This culture will never happened in Malaysia due to Malaysia people normally already feel mad when hon by other car.

Compare to Medan, Malaysia already consider a very nice country to live forever. We have a lot of shopping mall, nice garden to exercise, advance public transport, high basic salary and subsidies or allowance from government . As Malaysian, we have to appreciate what we have in this country. We should feel proud to born in Malaysia.

Mochi Sweets: Japanese Luxury Deli~~

Hi, it quite a long time for me do not update my blog after i start to work.

Here, I want to share some nice food with everyone that I discover recently. That is Japanese Mochi.

Mochi Sweets has 2 outlet in KL, one is located at Pavilion Tokyo Street and another one is located at The Garden. I bought this Mochi at The Garden outlet and I highly recommend for this dessert because it is really taste nice especially you consume it after the Mochi skin turn soft.

There are several flavor for this Mochi and I already try for Cream Chocolate, Sakura, Red Bean, Mango Yoghurt, Chestnut Cream and Blueberry Cream. For me, I love Sakura, Mango and Chestnut Cream flavor.
Although the price quite expensive, I think that it is worth to try it once due to this Mochi are imported from Japan. Another things I want to say is the Green tea Mochi is the top selling among all the Mochi. I never try it before due to it always out of stock when I want buy it for try. However, I believe that the other flavor of Mochi are nice too.

I serve it when I stop at the Austin Chase coffee shop to enjoy a cup of Cappuccino with my friend. It was a relax weekend that can enjoy high tea and Mochi Sweets with him.

My Mochi with Cappuccino.............Another good suggestion to enjoy during weekend.

我们分开了~

一场毫无预告的事情却让我们俩彼此分开了。。
当我听到你消息时，我顿时愣着，我自己不敢相信这是事实。说真的，这让我打击很大，我真的一时接受不了，我接受不了这真相。
还记得我们最后一次的谈天，你说你很幸运因为在你生命里遇见了我，你说不会让我再等下去了，你说你会出席我毕业典礼，你说。。。。我没想过这是我们最后的通话，我一直不敢去面对，心还滴着血，伤需要很久很久才会痊愈。
一直以来，我和你那幸福的时光，那是我从来没有得到过的。你很努力去为我改变，你让我坚信我们可以一起走下去。每当你牵着我手时，你会让我知道你不会那么容易放开我的手。每次吵架后，你都会笑笑的先哄回我，因为你知道我喜欢你的笑容。。
我 脑海里一直都有很多为什么，为什么事情会到这样的地步，为什么会变成这样，为什么，为什么，为什么。。。。。你从来不会丢下我那么久，但是这次你却真的丢下我了。。命运，真的在玩弄着我们俩。。
很多时候，他们都说我们不配，但是我坚信我们能走到最后。曾经我们一起的梦想就是做小生意，生活不要求很富裕，只要足够给一个小家庭就行。。你的坏和我的好正好就是互补彼此的性格。。
我们的分开不算是正式的分开吧，是命运要我们就在这里分开。。我从没想过我们会用这种方式分开，但最残忍的就是要我忘记你，当着我们不曾相识过。曾经的我们都拥有很幸福的时光，而我哪可能那轻易把你给忘了。。
我会把一切美好的都收着，把不好的通通忘了。。我不想把你忘了，我只想留着那一点点的回忆，当我往后遇到什么不开心的事时，我都会想起你曾对我说的做的。。

我爱你

我爱你， 这三个字不难说。但是要把它真实的意义表达出来或许有点难。爱，是什么？

爱，包含了包容，迁就，信任和在乎。

因为包容，我们不会因为不同背景而觉得不适合。

因为迁就，我们彼此不常吵架。

因为信任，我们不会猜疑对方。

因为在乎，我们吵架后很快就和好。

经过了波折， 我们的心更加坚定而在一起。

这段时间的波折，说真的很难熬，很辛苦。

我们而为了这距离而差点放弃了。

距离，让我们领悟了对彼此的爱，彼此的心。

每当我想放弃时，你都会拉我一把，让你温暖的手握着我让我知道我不是一个人。

失败，让我们学会了要为彼此而坚强走下去。

虽然在事业上不顺利，你让我看到了你为了要给我好的将来而努力。

爱情，让我看到了为彼此付出的心。

真爱，并不会在乎你是富有还是贫穷。

有钱时，我们一起吃大餐，去旅游。

没钱时，我们就躲在家里看电视自己下厨。

爱，不是用钱去衡量。

无论贫穷还是富有，只要你为我而努力，我也愿意陪你一起度过难关。

爱，是幸福，是开心的。

因为在爱里面，没有物质，没有钱的衡量，只有那个愿意和你走一辈子的人。

经过许多波折的爱情，可让彼此更加坚定更加坚持。

感动，是因为你愿意为了我而改变自己的坏习惯。

男人，不会轻易改变自己。当他遇上了他想要和她一辈子的女人，他才会愿意去改变。

这段时间，我感受到了那没你在身边的痛苦。

距离，让我们的思念变得越来越难呼吸。

因为思念，让我们彼此快快完成手上的工作。

也因为思念，我们更加珍惜在一起的时间。

一个孩子的心声 （真人真事）

一个三岁的小女孩通常是天真无邪，蹦蹦跳跳的跟随在大人的身边受着有如公主般的疼爱与关怀。这都是我们成人所会做所会想去疼爱一个那么幼小的孩子。但是你有没有想过大人的犯错却会连累无辜的小孩一生。小孩并没有错，错就错在她生长在一个不好的家庭里。

她，在某年某月的某一天诞生在一个大家庭。全家人都很开心的欢迎她来到这花花世界， 因为她那美丽的笑容让人觉得很窝心。她叫恩，恩赐的恩，代表着上天的恩赐。一个那么幼小的女孩通常应该有很美好的童年， 会被大人打扮得漂漂亮亮带出街，会留着长长美美的头发，或者绑着可爱的辫子。她，就因为大人的一次过错而失去了原本属于她应该有的童年。

她有一个哥哥，妈妈因为当年怀了哥哥而嫁给了爸爸。结婚后的爸爸妈妈开始了那吵吵闹闹的生活。妈妈的脾气就像一个王后，在家所有的家庭成员都要听他的命令，不可反驳她。正因为这样，爸爸和妈妈的关系更加恶劣。

她的诞生并没有改变爸爸妈妈的关系，而是变得更可怜。随着年龄的成长，她的皮肤和一般人不一样。一天一天的过去，看着别家的孩子正在外面玩耍，她就在家里面对着被细菌慢慢地吞噬她皮肤的痛苦。所有的关节也因那细菌而变得红红，皮肤也越来越薄，伤处也会很痒。她那痛苦的哭声让在那家庭的人感到心酸可怜，旁人的无助让她感到更痛苦。她，仿佛知道她和别人不一样，她这一辈子不能吃有关鸡蛋的食物，例如蛋糕；就因为鸡蛋的成分会让她皮肤发作变得更加糟糕。当别家的女孩在开开心心庆祝生日，吃着美味的蛋糕时，她只能在家面对着那不是一般人能忍受的痛苦。旁人不会了解一个小孩面临的痛苦，因为只有她自己知道。她害怕洗澡，因为当水晒在患处就会有那如此般的疼痛，就宛如跌倒了你用水洗伤口那样疼痛。而她的患处不止一小部分，而是整身的关节和颈项。

可能很多人会说为什么不把她送去医院医治，这问题我也问了很多遍，但是身为旁人只能很无助又可怜的看着她。她妈妈的坚持让所有人都替这小女孩而着急。妈妈的观念永远和别人不同，就像将一个小女孩的生命来当赌注。小女孩的皮肤一天比一天严重，妈妈依然不愿意把她送进医院治疗，就因为这样恩的皮肤也因妈妈使用那些别人所说的古老秘方而变得越来越严重，从手脚关节发红到颈项，现在细菌慢慢开始吞噬到脸部。小孩的痛苦，旁人的无助，妈妈的执着让人觉得大人的过错将造成一个无辜的孩子失去生命的悲哀。

她那无辜的眼神和渴望像其他小女孩一样的健康快乐都把旁人感到伤感。妈妈的坚持让很多人都感到生气又无助。毕竟不是自己的孩子，我们都无权去干涉她妈妈的决定。她，是多么渴望可以无忧无虑的享受各种美食。别家的孩子都有爸爸妈妈带着去吃美味的麦当劳或肯德基，她一出世到现在并没有尝过这些每个小孩都会喜爱吃的食物。只因妈妈认为她除了青菜，什么也不能让她吃。还记得有一天，大人们打包了一只鸡肉当晚餐，她偷偷的拿了一个鸡腿跑到一个黑暗的角落去吃，她知道她不能吃但是那渴望吃肉的心情让我觉得很酸很无助。

试想想一个每天都吃菜的大人，久了都会想吃肉，更何况一个正在发育成长的孩子啊。没人会知道下一秒会发生什么事，但是身为父母的他们应该知道孩子一天不医，会越来越严重。没人知道这孩子的命运会是如何，因为她的命运是掌握在她父母身上。我们能做的只有祈祷希望她会康复。

孩子，是上天赐给每位夫妇的礼物，也是彼此爱情的结晶。难道就因为婚姻不如意而赌上了孩子的性命吗？他们多么无辜，他们并没有犯错。犯错的是大人，为何要把那过错发泄在孩子身上呢？既然不合，就别把他们生下来。一旦生下来，就应该用你生命去保护他们。孩子，永远都是家里维持夫妻关系的一份子。他们是可爱的，不要因为婚姻不如意而影响了他们的成长。

每当我看见她，我都会再想多疼爱她一些。因为无助，我觉得她可怜。她的笑容一天比一天的少，我真希望再看到她那灿烂美丽的笑容。

p/s: 我写这文章不是要谴责她父母或是谁，我只希望每个父母都好好保护你们的孩子，别当一个自私的父母，孩子并没有权利去选择在哪里出世，有哪个孩子想要一出生就要面对和别人不一样的痛苦。父母，是孩子唯一的避风港，唯一的依靠。我真希望恩的父母能够醒一醒，别再为其他的事而争吵，有什么事比自己孩子的性命来的重要吗？