The guy inside my heart..

         Maybe some of my friends will feel curious who is the guy inside my heart, or maybe they will think that he is the one i love the most in my life..But the guy inside my heart already replace by other person. It is a naked truth to say my ex bf used to be the one important for me, but he already live inside my memory since I already give up to wait for him that moment. For me, nobody can replace him in my memory because he gave me a lot of sweet memory..They appear in my life after I leave him...Who are they??
         I still remembered i knew him when I in form 1. He is elder than me about 7 years. Can you imagine how a 14 years old little girl know a 21 years old guy when in school? It's look like weird right?But we knew each other and became a very close friends that time. I also cant imagine how can I know him that time,but we always plays and chat together. For me, he look like a brother who very care about me. Although we lost contact for 3 years,we still met again because of one of my former colleague. When I met him that time, I feel surprise and shock because I never think that I can meet him again. After that we always keep in touch until now,he treat me very very and very good. It is uncountable for how good he treat me, he is very gentlemen and always care about me. He became a very important friend in my life and his goodness cant compare with other guy although he is not a graduate student. He came out from a poor family and did not study until high school. But his characteristic and attitude won a lot of guy who study until high school as i know.. Sometime i will feel that is very sarcastic when i look some graduated guy even cant compare with him.
        Another person is the one I appreciate the most in my life. I should thanks him because he let me know that no matter what had happened in my life, he still beside me give me support and willing to lend his shoulder to cry on. He is the 1st guy tell me how special am I in his heart. He let me know that i'm a very special in the eyes of people. He make me feel that i'm look special and bright when around him. I feel touch and happy when he beside me. I remembered I knew him when I in form 6. He is my junior, although he used to propose to me many times, I reject him. Maybe a lot of friends will feel curious why I want reject him since he treat me so good? I don't want hurt him, the person I don't want hurt the most is him..I don't want him always feel disappointed because of me..I hope he can live with his own style happily..
          I willing to give them anything or try my best to help them when they need, but i feel sorry because i cant give them my heart..I really appreciate them in my life because they are really important friends for me.They never give up me and treat me sincerely when beside me for every minute and every second. Nobody can compare with them inside my heart except my family. I love my life now, I hope our friendship will stay forever and ever. Guys,I will always pray for you and I appreciate you as my friends very much..Thanks for your understanding and tolerance..

下一站的幸福是什么呢？？

有些人的人生，

是直達車 有些人卻是慢車，

中間總要經過許多站，

經歷許多人… 

有人總是下錯站，

坐過頭，

不是錯失了窗外風景，

就是錯過了身旁的人 沒有人知道，

能陪自己坐到終點站的人，

究竟會是誰…. 

相愛的人，

真的就能一路到達人生的終點站嗎？

~心痛~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3DeegGSD9o

这音乐，这首歌。。让我很悲伤，它让我想起以前的美好和一些回忆，有很大的感触。有时我的眼泪会悄悄地从我的眼眶流了下来，那眼泪包含了甜和酸的心情。我就像里面的女主角，默默地等待着我的王子回头看看我，但是他最后还是从来没有回头看我一眼。可能对他来说我并不是什么，可能对他来说我对他的爱不重要。他从来没开口对我说过‘我爱你’，我以为只要我默默地爱着他，关心他，他总有一天会感受到。但是他还是令我失望了，他只会往前冲，而忘了我在后面紧紧地追着他。。
最后我很狠心的放弃，放弃去爱他，离开他，不再默默地紧跟他脚步 了。。虽然现在我们还是朋友，有时会关心他，但是一切也回不到从前了，而我告诉自己我不会再让自己重新去爱上他了。。
他是个很有魅力的男人，虽然对他的感觉并没有我曾经深爱的男人那么深，但是至少有想过要和他长久~

现在的我并不想为别人而活，我想为自己而活。他不疼我没关系，只要我懂得疼爱我自己就行了。。我活得开心就是他们不珍惜我的代价咯~

 

My Uni memory

It's time to introduce my friends here....Do you know that they are a part of my life?My wonderful uni life is came from them...

 

My cutest roomate: Lilian,Zoey n Lee Hiang

We already been live together in a same room since 1st semester at July,2008.It has a lot of sweet memory between us and it make us more close without any barrier. Lee Hiang is our senior from different course.Although not same course with us,we still live happily and sometime chat until midnight also don't wan go to sleep. We had go to shopping, watching movie and sing k together. I learn how to tolerate and be patient when live in hostel. Although is four people,i still feel we r look like family and feel warm in my room..

 

Redang trip with Lilian, me and Zoey

Took when my 21 birthday..From left is Bing, Brandon, Poh cai, Kok Keong and Soon Way

I think this is the photo he smile most nicely..Beside me is my best friend too in my university- Soon Way. For me,he is a special guy in my life because i really never see the guy like him. He love to follow all fashion which different from other guy,he is a very friendly n kind friend in my life. That's why we are very close and good friend. I learn a lot of things from him especially branded things. He love branded but he is not that kind of

love to show off in front of people.I love his this kind of characteristic..

This is UPM Economic course most famous boy 'couple' which formed by Brandon(boy) and Poh Cai(girl ). If you don't know them, you will think they are gay in the university, because they really close with each other. If you know them well, you will find that they really are good friends and their characteristic very same and friendly. Poh Cai is a very good in talking,cute and funny guy.I believe you will keep laughing when he got in the conversation.

This is a nice dinner with a gang of uni coursemate. Although some of them not so close, i think all of us quite enjoy this dinner very much in Full House,Ara Damansara. Really happy and good memory with them.

Pretty girl and handsome guy in my course night 2009

Took with two 'actress' (Lilian and Zoey) behind, Kok Keong and Chun Xiang in class..

My neighbor and good friends in hostel. We always chat gossip about other people in hostel oh..hehe 

It has a lot of nice memory between me and them..I feel happy and appreciate them as my friends.sometime i just want to tell them: " is glad to know you my friend"..love them very much and Friends forever~

The feeling of love~

Love is blind~
Everyone also know it since we start to get in the relationship..
Although how u love someone either more or less, the feeling of how u love someone is very complicated and it is very difficult to describe it..

Love make u feel suffer sometime...
Because of love, u willing to wait n wait for his/ her respond to u.
Because of love, u willing to sacrificed everything for him/her.
Because of love, u willing to give him/her everything good n leave something bad for yourself..

When u love someone,
you willing to do anything to him/her although something is impossible.
You willing to get everything he/she wan just because you don't wan to see he/she feel disappointed
You willing to do something u never do before because of you love him/her..
You willing to treat him/her as good as possible because of u love him/her.
You willing to wait for his/her call although it is very late,because of love..

But do u know the feeling of love can make you feel tired?
Sometime you will feel tired to wait for him/her to give you respond..
Sometime you feel tired to wait for him/her to know what is your feeling to him/her..
Sometime you will feel tired to wait for him/her to treat u good in the future although u just need him/her can smile or stay beside you for a moment..
Sometime you will feel tired to wait for him/her to say i love you or i miss you from his/her heart..

When u love deeply by someone,
You don't need to wait for his/her respond to you,because he/she always be with you anytime n any moment..
You don't need to feel worry n tired because he/she already do everything for you..
You don't need to wait for his/her answer because he/she will try to do anything for you as soon as possible
You don't need to wait for his/her sweet talk because he/she will always smile n say i love you n i miss you everyday..
You don't need to wait for his/her sms because you will see his/her sms when you wake up in the morning..
You don't need to know how he/she love you in his/her heart because you already can feel it when together with him/her..

Love can let you feel sweet n tired sometime..
People make a choice everyday,either you choose to be someone love you more or you love someone more than you do..
It is sweet when love come to equality where both of them also love each other very much and cant count who is more n who is less..

Just wan to advice those don't know how important is love, don't ever simply make a choice because it will hurt him/her very much..
Just wan to advice those don't know appreciate someone beside you, don't ever give promise and approach him/her when you feel you cant give him/her anything from you..
Just wan to advice those already found someone really appreciate you and willing to give you his/her future, don't ever make him/her feel disappointed because you cant find him/her back in your life again..
Just wan to advice those left by someone don't ever give up to find someone will appreciate you in your future life because it is not worth for you to give up because of someone don't know appreciate you in his/her life..

Love is only make you feel happy n sweet in life...
Appreciate what you have now, don't ever give up your love easily although it comes to problem in your life...Good luck my friends~

败犬女王的故事

败犬女王让我想起了我真的和他很像。一向外表坚强的我，有时心里却有那寂寞的感觉。你知道吗?在戏里的无双在人生中的爱情是那么甜蜜的，是真的曾经真心爱过一个男人。而在现实生活的我也和他一样，曾经那轰轰烈烈的爱情，就在一刹那不见了。我真的痛苦过，想过找个人陪伴，但是我还是活在有他的影子里。无双和允浩的爱情真的很感人，情景也差不多和我一样。和他分开三年了，以后我和他的命运会是怎样？会好像无双和允浩那样分开六年又复合吗？
他应该不知道我还想着他吧？我无时无刻都想着我和他的回忆，第一次在商场的邂逅，第一次一起吃东西，我还在那一次出丑，你骂我为什么那么脏不用纸巾，第一次你告诉我你对我是一见钟情的。那时的我还笨笨的不知道，你真的好奇怪哦，向女生表白也不敢，居然和我通电话时偷偷寄短讯给我问几时才愿意接受你。第一次出声向我告白居然还逼我对你说我爱你这三个字的笨蛋，第一次在车上让我感受到你的温软与在乎，第一次在火车上让我感受到你多么爱我和紧张我。。你平时不做的却一一呈现在我面前，我不知道我为什么那么爱你，那么难忘记你，我们可能拥有太多的回忆了。在公园发生的丑事，在火车站的丑事，在你以前宿舍的丑事。。。一切一切我真的还记得，三年前的同学会，是我最幸福快乐的时刻，就是你告诉我你要我等你，等你回来，你想和我结婚，你给我的承诺我一一到现在都很清楚。
虽然那时的我和你分手，但是这三年我都没忘记，可能现在一切的一切都改变了，但是我和你的回忆并没改变，对你的感觉也一样没改变。。

暧昧

‘暧昧 让人受尽委屈 找不到相爱的证据。。。。’
暧昧真的让人感到难受，我曾经尝试过那种暧昧的滋味，真的真的很难受。
想当初认识他，被他那种体贴给吸引了。想当初他那时有个在远方的女友，而我有个在远方的男友。因此我们变成了一个很好的朋友，每次一起出去走街看戏。从一个很好的朋友变成一个开始有暧昧关系的朋友，那时的我已经和我在远方的男友分手了。
暧昧的滋味真的很难受，因为你根本不清楚你在对方的心里是什么地位，是朋友还是情侣？每次我问他，他却会逃避我的问题。我真的真的不清楚那时的我到底在做些什么？
为他默默的付出，等待他的答案，浪费了我不少的时间。那天晚上我真的想通了，我不应该再继续这样下去，因为这样下去我会更难受更伤害我自己。过后，我离开了他，很彻底很彻底的离开了他。我从来不曾回头过，因为我觉得他已经不值得我再为他付出了，他已经默默的伤害了我。
直到现在我们没有再联络了，就当着一切结束了吧。
这件事让我学会我不会在玩暧昧游戏了。可能很多男生会选择暧昧吧，因为他们大多数不善于表达自己对对方的感情。也或许他们只需要一个伴而不是一个爱他的人吧。
直到现在我不会把那些暧昧的关系牵涉在我生活里，因为我喜欢直接的人而不是那些喜欢玩暧昧的人。。

爱情里的尊重~

往往很多人不明白什么是尊重？
在爱情里，尊重是最基本的原则。即使两个人在一起也是需要彼此的空间与私隐，当两个人开始检查对方时，尊重与信任已经慢慢的消失了。
有些情侣不管是男方或女方，每天二十四小时都喜欢粘在一起，不然就是二十四小时每一小时一通电话来查看对方在那里做些什么?我真的很想问，难道他们不觉得烦吗？当你想对你的伴侣采取这些行动时，你可否想想对方的感受？也想想当对方反回来这样对待你，你又有何感受呢？如果你也顶不了，我相信对方也顶不了吧。
当做什么事时，请想想对方的感受，人不能那么自私。自私的爱情里，是没有长久这两个字。当两个人真心相爱，信任和尊重很重要。没有人愿意在还没结婚就被约束着，两人都需要空间，两人都需要和朋友一起的时间。当一个人已经不尊重你，已经开始不给你私人空间了，这代表他已经越来越不信任你了。
当彼此没了基本的信任，那就会慢慢出现争吵。
信任可以让一个人深爱着你，懂的尊重别人的人会散发出一种魅力。当被你相信着的对方犯错了，他自然会产生一种罪恶感，因为他破坏你对他的信任了。
所以不要因为某些事情而不信任他，尝试去信任他，当他真的多次破坏了你对他的信任，那就表示他并不值得你再去信任与尊重了。

真爱

看完了《不良笑花》后，我才深深的感受到真爱原来是那么幸福。它是个让人先苦后甜的梦。分开的时候会很痛苦，但当一切都结束了，就会很甜蜜。可能真正的爱情就必须经过一段艰难的路吧。真正爱一个人是需要很大的决心与力量，因为这需要无时无刻的体谅与包容，而且也需要牺牲。当一段感情是没有互相付出与牺牲，往往这并不是那么刻苦铭心。

有时会感觉到爱一个人很累，真的很累。等待的日子也会让人觉得很疲惫。但当你回忆起你跟他的一点一滴，你会感到很开心，一点疲累也没有。等待，原来是那么煎熬的。虽然时间慢慢的渡过，但思念也会越来越深。有时好想可以大声说给他听，我真的很想念他。

虽然不知道结局会如何，继续的等待真的是很好的选择吗？或许很多人都不同意，但我知道如不努力，你就会失去一段真爱。人大多数失去了才会学会珍惜，失去了才会知道以前的是多么美好。这就是人的本性，身在福中不知福。

当要说分手时，请考虑清楚，因为一分了什么都完了。请想想看他是不是那个值得你去珍惜的人，我不否认每个人都有缺点，但有时我们应该多看优点而去包容对方的缺点。如果那个人是不值得让你去珍惜的，那就应该长痛不如短痛，而选择分手。一段真实的爱情是快乐多过痛苦的，如在你和他的回忆里，快乐是比痛苦多的，这就表示你们的爱情是值得去维持的。

我爱的他，优点很多但缺点只有一个就是他从不跟我吵架。我不知这是优点还是缺点，但他这一点确是让我很欣赏又头痛的一点。头痛是因为有时想跟他吵吵架，让感情刺激点也不行。有时我还会向他提议我和他来个吵架又和好，他会笑着说我疯了。在我眼里，他几乎是个十全十美的男生。这就是我当初和现在那么爱他的原因。

要维持一段感情不容易，彼此需要时间去建立感情。久了感情难免缺乏新鲜感，所以有时彼此需要弄些新鲜感来维持感情。例如说女生亲自弄个爱心便当给男生，男生会吃进嘴里甜在心里。女生要知道男生是个爱面子的动物，他们是不会将心里的话说出，但女生可以从他们的眼神去感受到他们的感受。有时男生的一举一动可以让女生看出男生有多在乎她。

男生永远都喜欢被别人羡慕着。所以女生应该多打扮美美，让男生会对你刮目相看。有时普通的打扮更让自己秤托出气质又女人味。这样男生的眼神永远只有你了。

大方并不是每个人可以做到。如果你可以做到男生心目中大方的女人，那他一辈子都会爱死你。何谓大方？那就是不过分的吃醋。当男生跟别的女生谈天时，别立刻摆起生气的样子。女生应该很大方的，在男生面前给足男生面子，让他知道你是个大方得体的女生。

信任，是一段感情的关键。没有信任，一段感情就不能永恒。信任感是开始于两方的，当你要对方不可做一样东西时，你必须确保你也不会做同一样的东西。这是因为避免有借口让对方说你也做错。给彼此私人空间是培养信任感的开始，女生应该让男生知道你是只爱他的。男生应该用行动表示你只爱他的，例如很坦白的告诉女生跟谁在一起，避免女生的猜疑。一次的谎言可以成为一辈子的吵架话题，要信任就不要说谎。

信心，可以让感情更长久。女生应该对自己有信心而且不害怕失去。有自信的女生是男生眼中的美女，女生更应该对自己的伴侣和感情有信心。这样的话感情会比较稳定，而且一旦真的分手女方不会那么受伤。除此之外，女生应该对每一段感情都有分手的准备，这样一来分手后也不会那么受伤又憎恨对方。

一旦分手了，女生千万别憎恨对方或者吵吵闹闹的，因为这样会破坏你自己在别人眼中的形象。不要认为世界上只有他才值得你爱，其实是你还没遇到另个更值得你去珍惜你男生。但分手了就别去计较谁对谁错，只要你对他是真心的好，总有天他会回来找回你，因为他会发现到你是真的对他好的，到时他会开始后悔当初的行为。千万别感到灰心当你和他分手，因为世界还有很多人选等你去选择。

爱情是互相付出的，而不是单方面的付出。当你发现你的爱情里只有你在付出，而他却只接受，这证明了这爱情并不是真诚的。这时候你就应该去想想到底这爱情是你要的吗？你真的想这样的爱情长久吗？所谓”长痛不如短痛”，当一段爱情真的不适合自己就应该赶快分开，这样才不会造成两方的严重伤害。

吵架，可好可坏。每段恋情一定难免有争吵，吵架可以让彼此增进感情，让两方更了解对方的需要。但吵架应该适可而至，别太过分，而且千万别老是把分手挂在嘴边，因为这样会更快让你们的感情完蛋。当一段感情出现很多让你们一直吵架的问题，这就表示你们是不适合在一起。勉强在一起只会让两方更加的辛苦。所谓勉强的爱情永远都不会幸福的。