心碎的那一刻

和他可以说相识了差不多半年，对他有种很特别和难以形容的感觉。 你问我喜欢他吗， 我会答我喜欢他；但你问我想和他一起吗， 我会很犹豫我是否适合和他一起。
和他在一起的时刻，很开心，我不知道为什么他让我那么喜欢和他在一起。他对我会很体贴温柔，我们总是有说不完的话题，可以说我们是知己。我了解他的性格，我想他也了解我吧。他曾经告诉我他需要时间去忘掉之前那伤害他很深的恋情。
曾经的我，因为在乎他而时常和他吵架。我们因为不了解对方，在加上彼此的脾气也不小，每次把事情吵到很复杂。很多时候我会告诉自己，我们好像并不适合。但是我最后还是选择原谅和道歉。
昨天，我们发生了很大的争执。可能他遇到很烦的事情，再加上他把那脾气发在我身上，我根本接受不到他这样的行为。我们吵到很严重的地步，他说了很多伤害我的话。说真的，我真的很伤心，心痛到眼泪都把我衣服弄湿了。我心痛因为他把我和他的友情看的那么浅。我心痛他可以那么轻易的说出很多难听的话来伤害我。
我，并不是个复杂的女生。
我，从没要求他要给我什么。
我，并没打算真的和他一起。
但是，我还是继续待在他身边，给他支持，给他力量，做他的聆听者。
我知道他需要别人的支持和鼓励。
喜欢一个人，并不需要真的去拥有他。
而我，我选择了待在他身边给他鼓励和支持。他烦恼时，我会和他一起分担。虽然我没什么能力帮到他，但是我可以做的就是做他的聆听者，让他诉苦。
当他面对压力时，我可以买些他喜欢吃的甜点来鼓励他。
可能以后我们不一定可以在一起， 但是我会陪他直到他真正喜欢的女人出现。
虽然你会说我很笨，但是我可以为他做的就只有这些。
说真的，我很生气很心痛尤其是他那些句句难听的话。
虽然最后我选择原谅，但是伤害最终还是伤害了，心里的疤痕不会随着原谅而复原。
即使他道歉了，那伤害还是无法当着没发生过。
一千句的我喜欢你永远都不能盖过一句那么伤人的话。

如果我们的友情是件儿戏，那么我宁愿放弃。因为在那个时候，他已经不值得我为他付出了。。

A letter From Mom and Dad

My child,
When I grow old, I hope you understand and have patience with me.
In case I break a plate, or spill soup on the table because I'm loosing my eye sight,
I hope you don't yell at me.
Older people are sensitive, always having self pity when you yell.
When my hearing gets worse and I can't hear what you are saying,
I hope you don't call me "Deaf!"
Please repeat what you said or write it down.
I'm sorry, my child,
I'm getting older.
When my knee get weaker, I hope you have the patience to help me get up.
Like how I used to help you while you were little, learning how to walk.
Please bear with me.
When I keep repeating myself like a broken record,
I hope you just keep listening to me.
Please don't make fun of me or get sick of listening to me
Do you remember when you were little and you wanted a balloon?
You repeated yourself over and over until you got what you wanted.
Please also pardon my smell.
I smell like an old person,
Please don't force me to shower. My body is weak. Old people get sick easily when they're cold.
I hope I don't gross you out,
Do you remember when you were little?
I used to chase you around because you didn't want to shower.
I  hope you can be patient with me, when I'm always cranky. Its all part of getting old.
You'll understand when you're older and if you have spare time. I hope we can talk, even for a few minutes.
I'm always all by myself all the time, and have no one to talk to.

When I read until the last paragraph of the letter, my tears drop without I realize. All the scene about my child time how they educate and teach me appear in my mind. Parents, take care about us from the baby until we grow up. They sacrifice their time and money, but they just want us to be a good person in this society. They never request anything from us, they just want us to spend more time with them after we work. Appreciate the time when you spend with them. You will become parents too in the future, do not always think about yourselves........