The guy inside my heart..

         Maybe some of my friends will feel curious who is the guy inside my heart, or maybe they will think that he is the one i love the most in my life..But the guy inside my heart already replace by other person. It is a naked truth to say my ex bf used to be the one important for me, but he already live inside my memory since I already give up to wait for him that moment. For me, nobody can replace him in my memory because he gave me a lot of sweet memory..They appear in my life after I leave him...Who are they??
         I still remembered i knew him when I in form 1. He is elder than me about 7 years. Can you imagine how a 14 years old little girl know a 21 years old guy when in school? It's look like weird right?But we knew each other and became a very close friends that time. I also cant imagine how can I know him that time,but we always plays and chat together. For me, he look like a brother who very care about me. Although we lost contact for 3 years,we still met again because of one of my former colleague. When I met him that time, I feel surprise and shock because I never think that I can meet him again. After that we always keep in touch until now,he treat me very very and very good. It is uncountable for how good he treat me, he is very gentlemen and always care about me. He became a very important friend in my life and his goodness cant compare with other guy although he is not a graduate student. He came out from a poor family and did not study until high school. But his characteristic and attitude won a lot of guy who study until high school as i know.. Sometime i will feel that is very sarcastic when i look some graduated guy even cant compare with him.
        Another person is the one I appreciate the most in my life. I should thanks him because he let me know that no matter what had happened in my life, he still beside me give me support and willing to lend his shoulder to cry on. He is the 1st guy tell me how special am I in his heart. He let me know that i'm a very special in the eyes of people. He make me feel that i'm look special and bright when around him. I feel touch and happy when he beside me. I remembered I knew him when I in form 6. He is my junior, although he used to propose to me many times, I reject him. Maybe a lot of friends will feel curious why I want reject him since he treat me so good? I don't want hurt him, the person I don't want hurt the most is him..I don't want him always feel disappointed because of me..I hope he can live with his own style happily..
          I willing to give them anything or try my best to help them when they need, but i feel sorry because i cant give them my heart..I really appreciate them in my life because they are really important friends for me.They never give up me and treat me sincerely when beside me for every minute and every second. Nobody can compare with them inside my heart except my family. I love my life now, I hope our friendship will stay forever and ever. Guys,I will always pray for you and I appreciate you as my friends very much..Thanks for your understanding and tolerance..

下一站的幸福是什么呢？？

有些人的人生，

是直達車 有些人卻是慢車，

中間總要經過許多站，

經歷許多人… 

有人總是下錯站，

坐過頭，

不是錯失了窗外風景，

就是錯過了身旁的人 沒有人知道，

能陪自己坐到終點站的人，

究竟會是誰…. 

相愛的人，

真的就能一路到達人生的終點站嗎？

~心痛~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3DeegGSD9o

这音乐，这首歌。。让我很悲伤，它让我想起以前的美好和一些回忆，有很大的感触。有时我的眼泪会悄悄地从我的眼眶流了下来，那眼泪包含了甜和酸的心情。我就像里面的女主角，默默地等待着我的王子回头看看我，但是他最后还是从来没有回头看我一眼。可能对他来说我并不是什么，可能对他来说我对他的爱不重要。他从来没开口对我说过‘我爱你’，我以为只要我默默地爱着他，关心他，他总有一天会感受到。但是他还是令我失望了，他只会往前冲，而忘了我在后面紧紧地追着他。。
最后我很狠心的放弃，放弃去爱他，离开他，不再默默地紧跟他脚步 了。。虽然现在我们还是朋友，有时会关心他，但是一切也回不到从前了，而我告诉自己我不会再让自己重新去爱上他了。。
他是个很有魅力的男人，虽然对他的感觉并没有我曾经深爱的男人那么深，但是至少有想过要和他长久~

现在的我并不想为别人而活，我想为自己而活。他不疼我没关系，只要我懂得疼爱我自己就行了。。我活得开心就是他们不珍惜我的代价咯~

 

My Uni memory

It's time to introduce my friends here....Do you know that they are a part of my life?My wonderful uni life is came from them...

 

My cutest roomate: Lilian,Zoey n Lee Hiang

We already been live together in a same room since 1st semester at July,2008.It has a lot of sweet memory between us and it make us more close without any barrier. Lee Hiang is our senior from different course.Although not same course with us,we still live happily and sometime chat until midnight also don't wan go to sleep. We had go to shopping, watching movie and sing k together. I learn how to tolerate and be patient when live in hostel. Although is four people,i still feel we r look like family and feel warm in my room..

 

Redang trip with Lilian, me and Zoey

Took when my 21 birthday..From left is Bing, Brandon, Poh cai, Kok Keong and Soon Way

I think this is the photo he smile most nicely..Beside me is my best friend too in my university- Soon Way. For me,he is a special guy in my life because i really never see the guy like him. He love to follow all fashion which different from other guy,he is a very friendly n kind friend in my life. That's why we are very close and good friend. I learn a lot of things from him especially branded things. He love branded but he is not that kind of

love to show off in front of people.I love his this kind of characteristic..

This is UPM Economic course most famous boy 'couple' which formed by Brandon(boy) and Poh Cai(girl ). If you don't know them, you will think they are gay in the university, because they really close with each other. If you know them well, you will find that they really are good friends and their characteristic very same and friendly. Poh Cai is a very good in talking,cute and funny guy.I believe you will keep laughing when he got in the conversation.

This is a nice dinner with a gang of uni coursemate. Although some of them not so close, i think all of us quite enjoy this dinner very much in Full House,Ara Damansara. Really happy and good memory with them.

Pretty girl and handsome guy in my course night 2009

Took with two 'actress' (Lilian and Zoey) behind, Kok Keong and Chun Xiang in class..

My neighbor and good friends in hostel. We always chat gossip about other people in hostel oh..hehe 

It has a lot of nice memory between me and them..I feel happy and appreciate them as my friends.sometime i just want to tell them: " is glad to know you my friend"..love them very much and Friends forever~

The feeling of love~

Love is blind~
Everyone also know it since we start to get in the relationship..
Although how u love someone either more or less, the feeling of how u love someone is very complicated and it is very difficult to describe it..

Love make u feel suffer sometime...
Because of love, u willing to wait n wait for his/ her respond to u.
Because of love, u willing to sacrificed everything for him/her.
Because of love, u willing to give him/her everything good n leave something bad for yourself..

When u love someone,
you willing to do anything to him/her although something is impossible.
You willing to get everything he/she wan just because you don't wan to see he/she feel disappointed
You willing to do something u never do before because of you love him/her..
You willing to treat him/her as good as possible because of u love him/her.
You willing to wait for his/her call although it is very late,because of love..

But do u know the feeling of love can make you feel tired?
Sometime you will feel tired to wait for him/her to give you respond..
Sometime you feel tired to wait for him/her to know what is your feeling to him/her..
Sometime you will feel tired to wait for him/her to treat u good in the future although u just need him/her can smile or stay beside you for a moment..
Sometime you will feel tired to wait for him/her to say i love you or i miss you from his/her heart..

When u love deeply by someone,
You don't need to wait for his/her respond to you,because he/she always be with you anytime n any moment..
You don't need to feel worry n tired because he/she already do everything for you..
You don't need to wait for his/her answer because he/she will try to do anything for you as soon as possible
You don't need to wait for his/her sweet talk because he/she will always smile n say i love you n i miss you everyday..
You don't need to wait for his/her sms because you will see his/her sms when you wake up in the morning..
You don't need to know how he/she love you in his/her heart because you already can feel it when together with him/her..

Love can let you feel sweet n tired sometime..
People make a choice everyday,either you choose to be someone love you more or you love someone more than you do..
It is sweet when love come to equality where both of them also love each other very much and cant count who is more n who is less..

Just wan to advice those don't know how important is love, don't ever simply make a choice because it will hurt him/her very much..
Just wan to advice those don't know appreciate someone beside you, don't ever give promise and approach him/her when you feel you cant give him/her anything from you..
Just wan to advice those already found someone really appreciate you and willing to give you his/her future, don't ever make him/her feel disappointed because you cant find him/her back in your life again..
Just wan to advice those left by someone don't ever give up to find someone will appreciate you in your future life because it is not worth for you to give up because of someone don't know appreciate you in his/her life..

Love is only make you feel happy n sweet in life...
Appreciate what you have now, don't ever give up your love easily although it comes to problem in your life...Good luck my friends~

败犬女王的故事

败犬女王让我想起了我真的和他很像。一向外表坚强的我，有时心里却有那寂寞的感觉。你知道吗?在戏里的无双在人生中的爱情是那么甜蜜的，是真的曾经真心爱过一个男人。而在现实生活的我也和他一样，曾经那轰轰烈烈的爱情，就在一刹那不见了。我真的痛苦过，想过找个人陪伴，但是我还是活在有他的影子里。无双和允浩的爱情真的很感人，情景也差不多和我一样。和他分开三年了，以后我和他的命运会是怎样？会好像无双和允浩那样分开六年又复合吗？
他应该不知道我还想着他吧？我无时无刻都想着我和他的回忆，第一次在商场的邂逅，第一次一起吃东西，我还在那一次出丑，你骂我为什么那么脏不用纸巾，第一次你告诉我你对我是一见钟情的。那时的我还笨笨的不知道，你真的好奇怪哦，向女生表白也不敢，居然和我通电话时偷偷寄短讯给我问几时才愿意接受你。第一次出声向我告白居然还逼我对你说我爱你这三个字的笨蛋，第一次在车上让我感受到你的温软与在乎，第一次在火车上让我感受到你多么爱我和紧张我。。你平时不做的却一一呈现在我面前，我不知道我为什么那么爱你，那么难忘记你，我们可能拥有太多的回忆了。在公园发生的丑事，在火车站的丑事，在你以前宿舍的丑事。。。一切一切我真的还记得，三年前的同学会，是我最幸福快乐的时刻，就是你告诉我你要我等你，等你回来，你想和我结婚，你给我的承诺我一一到现在都很清楚。
虽然那时的我和你分手，但是这三年我都没忘记，可能现在一切的一切都改变了，但是我和你的回忆并没改变，对你的感觉也一样没改变。。

暧昧

‘暧昧 让人受尽委屈 找不到相爱的证据。。。。’
暧昧真的让人感到难受，我曾经尝试过那种暧昧的滋味，真的真的很难受。
想当初认识他，被他那种体贴给吸引了。想当初他那时有个在远方的女友，而我有个在远方的男友。因此我们变成了一个很好的朋友，每次一起出去走街看戏。从一个很好的朋友变成一个开始有暧昧关系的朋友，那时的我已经和我在远方的男友分手了。
暧昧的滋味真的很难受，因为你根本不清楚你在对方的心里是什么地位，是朋友还是情侣？每次我问他，他却会逃避我的问题。我真的真的不清楚那时的我到底在做些什么？
为他默默的付出，等待他的答案，浪费了我不少的时间。那天晚上我真的想通了，我不应该再继续这样下去，因为这样下去我会更难受更伤害我自己。过后，我离开了他，很彻底很彻底的离开了他。我从来不曾回头过，因为我觉得他已经不值得我再为他付出了，他已经默默的伤害了我。
直到现在我们没有再联络了，就当着一切结束了吧。
这件事让我学会我不会在玩暧昧游戏了。可能很多男生会选择暧昧吧，因为他们大多数不善于表达自己对对方的感情。也或许他们只需要一个伴而不是一个爱他的人吧。
直到现在我不会把那些暧昧的关系牵涉在我生活里，因为我喜欢直接的人而不是那些喜欢玩暧昧的人。。